Yesterday was a day of learning..."ah ha's"...today was a tender day
Linda and I had to get up early for the Clinic appointment..no laying around this morning.....during the blood tests and fluids infusion, Linda became very emotional...and it didn't take long to figure out what was causing that...she is clearly neutropenic....very much so...the fluid infusions actually work on the blood pressure issues but also add to the neutropenia....and when one has those blood counts...emotions are not far away.
As Linda was getting the fluids, I met my commitment to walk for 15 minutes.....a start on some meaningful exercise...I found many "paths" within the clinic to travel, getting in the time. I also this morning had adopted an "intention statement" like we do in Wings.....like an affirmation....mine today was: "I am letting go of worry and creating trust for myself today"...and it worked!
I was being supportive without fusing..not stressing...trusting that what Linda was going through was normal and expected and her care would be what she needs.
I also took a nap for the first time...wrapped in blankets with gentle music....that was great too.
Linda has had a low key day...understanding where she is at in the process and that this is "day 10"...which is her "low point"....tomorrow hopefully she will start working her way "back up the hill" and by Monday she should be on the mend within this cycle. She is suffering from tingling and numbness in her fingers..it has gone down the fingers which is something they pay attention to...in the finger tips is expected but they cannot guarantee it will go away..particularly if it goes down the fingers...it might affect the chemo in the last cycle....so she will be discussing it with the Oncologist on the 23rd......on one hand, one wants to complete the treatment..on the other hand the "tingling and numbness".....she will make the right decision..whatever it is.
Tonight she is doing much better....calm and quiet.....I made her some homemade soup today...I did...I did...and she liked it. And my pressure seems to be ok...I am not measuring it yet as that by itself creates a bit of anxiety.
The challenge is now the weekend...we feel disconnected from our support system on weekends.....although some have given their home numbers (what a great group of caring people)...we'll just get into all the football games (can you see Linda doing that?) and it'll be over quickly....and a few affirmations and breathing will help.
Dave
Friday, January 11, 2008
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Hi guys,
Hang in there...the weekend is only two days!!!
Much love, Kay and John
I remember my mom had the tingling and numbness in her fingers, too. Made her sort of clumsy with things, sometimes, but I suppose it's a trade off. If it's what it takes to get healthy, it's worth it... I think so, anyway, but it's not me that has to go through it.
I'm glad the Reiki has helped you, Dave. Sounds like you're getting some of your perspective back, which will be very good for you both. It's easy to get caught in that cycle of feeding each other's worries. Now, you'll be better able to help Linda, without harming yourself.
Hope you have a good weekend and you don't worry too much. My love to you both, as always.
The weekend will come and go just like every weekend Dave. Though it may seem long without your doctor's, there's still alot of us out here sending our prayers and support. Take Care and before you know it, it's Monday again!
Wayne
I love the process of creating an intention statement. The power is incredible. Good for you and great job for doing it...
I love you both,
Julie
Good Morning and hopefully it is a good one for you both! It is so ironic that the weekends are what so many of us look forward to and they are obviously not the same for you right now. But you both will get through this and do have a lot of help around you if you need it. Remember, BELIEVE!
Taigen wants to make a picture for you and wants me to put it in my comments - I'll send it by email instead. : )
She also wants to sing Jesus Loves Me to you - she's singing it right now and dedicates it to you.
She just finished and said 'I love my grandma and grandpa'. We're going to do a bit of reading from The Precious Present and then go over to Gracie's house to watch the game later.
We love you and one more thing...GO HAWKS!
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