Wednesday...February 18th...2008

In my research the past few days on Linda's cough and all, I ran across the following an individual stated as part of a forum on lung cancer and everything associated with it....... I know God won't give me more than I can handle, but there are times I wish he didn't trust me so much!

I filed it in the back of my mind.....not knowing that today would come.....today is a day we mark down as one not to repeat....and it has nothing to do with the cancer and doctor visits and all...it is about the "real world" being a bit difficult to deal with today....with our energies focused on Linda's health issues.

First...the health stuff.....Linda had a pulmonary test yesterday at the Pulmonologist office...the results were good..we had wondered if the cancer had diminished her lung capacity..etc..etc..it appears not at this time. Today she was seen by the Pulmonologist. We spent a lot of time going over who had done what.....said what.....prescribed what......etc.....and looking at the latest scan of her lungs.....in the end, the explanation for what is going on appears quite simple. The cancer is causing the phlegm. The chemo treatments should reduce the cancer, therefore reducing the phlegm. In the short term, the doctor prescribed a low level narcotic to reduce the coughing..although it will not totally eliminate it. We discussed the "chicken and the egg"....will the coughing reduction create more phlegm and more problems or will more phlegm cause more coughing ...or...or. The doctor said there should not be a problem reducing the coughing. He also questioned the value of the Musinex...but told her to keep drinking water....

So we are on a plan for the cough....oh....we couldn't get the medication today as there was some confusion in the dosage..and..and. So tomorrow we can get Linda fixed up at the pharmacy (just another "thing" added to this "day of days".

So what is going on around us, in the "real world"?

A bunch of C-R-A-P....to put it in a printable form.

We were in the midst of re upping our financing on Linda's construction project which hasn't sold...something about a bad economy. Anyway, our banker who we have followed through three different banks has been let go..as have the entire commercial part of the bank, locally.....now Linda has to deal with people in Portland who do not know her..she doesn't know them....it is stressful and came to a head today.

Our broker was with Merrill Lynch...bought out by Bank of America...who imposed new rules...brokers bailed and went to Morgan Stanley ...easy?...nope...hard...today was just another bit of complications with that transfer to the day more forgettable.

And there was more today to make it a day to forget. Tomorrow we will wake up and address the day with new energy and a better attitude. Actually all in all, we did well today with all of the things that happened....we did remember to "breathe"...well, for the most part....

Tomorrow we will laugh.....and breathe.....
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The above is a picture on the Wings-seminars web site....the personal growth seminars we have mentioned on this Blog....the picture has always intrigued me....and has had different meanings to me at different times...today it means we have crossed over a difficult day....it means we have to energy to meet any challenge....it means there is no mountain high enough or an issue difficult enough to stop us.

I am also reminded of a piece of music in the seminars that I want to find and play....I cannot remember the name but a line in the song goes like this: "may we find peace in our bodies".....did I mention we were going to breathe?